I AM DOING IT!! IT IS HAPPENING> :D


So- 2 weeks off work and I had lots of vast plans of things to do.

Things achieved-  started a diet- 5:2 plan. I intend to continue this. I don't know quite how its going to work with going to work and fasting.

I aim to try and fast on Tuesdays and Thursday- as these are my half days at work- so I can have breakfast and then miss lunch and have a dinner later on. Shouldn't be impossible to do this. If it is- I can do Thursdays and a weekend day instead.


Exercise- Did the Jillian Michaels 30 day shred. Did really well with this- I've done 11 days now :D Only another19 to go.

Today I got back to running following my injury- how cool is that, and I JOGGED a 5k :D I didn't stop once and there were 2 hills goddamit.. Apart from the injury and 3 weeks off I feel bloody proud of myself that I kept going and have done a lot of dedicated training really. I'm not sure I would have been able to keep up for 5k jogging 9 weeks ago.

I met up with some friends. Rina, Jojo et.c
I did 2 OOH sessions, meaning I have just 2 more left to book and do :D
Started Audit.
I'm still feeling exhausted. I think its the healthy lifestyle changes that are impacting on my energy levels. Perhaps I need to give myself a break and take things easier.

So what is the plan Stan?

I admit- I'm feeling conflicted and stressed.

Back to work this week.
Goal 1 is to focus at work. To make it through and get all the tick boxes and hoop jumping completed.
Do PHQ this week. (It doesn't have to be great, it just has to be done)
Nag re MSF and in 4 weeks send out a second one. Query ask Gill about fact forgot to do the first one?
Get the bloody DOPS completed.
Write up some patient encounters.
Make a SMART PDP.


Need to sort out social life and fall in love with someone that makes me happy :D To do this aim to keep my diary, socialise more, get used to hanging out with people more, feel happier in my skin and radiate love and joy and confidence :D

WHY NOT!

The joy is in the ride not the outcome. I am so very blessed in many ways.
Courage darling, to be what you want to be- keep going down the road, keep moving and before long miracles might happen:D xxx

Hello world- or me to be precise

It has been 2 years since I wrote on this blog.. and things are much the same. Except- I'm nearly finished with Gp training and am in my final 6months and working as a GP.
I've been doing lots of singing and acting which I love in an amateur capacity.
I can drive and do drive!

I'm still living in the flat by myself.

I'm still lonely.
I'm still fat.


I'm not giving up- EVER…
Slowly and surely I WILL DO THIS.

Tomorrow is my birthday.
I have 3 things I really want… or really really want as the Spice girls would say for this year!!

1. To get a boyfriend and fall in love.
2. To get Thin and fit and feel good in my skin.
3. Qualify as a GP and find a manageable job.

(4) to write music and perform.


How?!?!
1. Socialise. Be pleasant. Stop putting myself down. Feel happier. GO OUT AND MEET HIM>
2. 5:2 Diet. 30 days shred. I want to be under TWELVE STONE by May. Thats a loss of 6-8lbs I believe which is totally achievable.
3. Keep working, keeping learning, do all the scary assessments that need completing.
Have 2 OOH to do, a PSQ, 2 MSFs, an audit, a few more DOPS and some Reflective entries to write up. Need to tidy up and upload the eportfolio to make sure I definitely pass my panel.

COME ON DARLING>>> YOU CAN DO IT :D